Losing a little more from 2012

this sat as a draft for 7 years and I just stumbled on it. I am pleased to see that despite the devastating experiences and losses I was still seeing the bright side, that there was one person who was there for me and held on. Thanks Michelle Homer <3 .="" nbsp="" p="">
I recently rewarded myself for a pretty challenging year by taking a once-in-twenty-year vacation without spouse or children to Las Vegas with the best group of softball playing women ever. I started an extra medication *just* for that trip, and ended up having a drug reaction the entire trip and zero insight. I seem to have lost control, lost friends and lost dignity. Fortunately I didn't gamble and lose money!
As my Alzheimer's eats a little more of me and my seizures don't help, I am losing more control of my life. It's been suggested that I can no longer travel without someone to basically babysit me. There's a blow to any self-esteem I was hanging onto, but it is also good that I have friends and family who will step up, tell the truth and pull in my options when I can't reliably make good decisions.